New York baby

hi everyone!

I miss everyone so much, let me say that much...I am starting my first day of classes today at NYU and I'm getting a little less nervous as I carve out some sliver of an existence here in the concrete jungle. I want to put up some pictures soon (as soon as I get internet and get my act together). I was thinking...things are going to be pretty tough without all of you guys to solve my problems and keep me updated on what's due and when. I realize how nice I had it when I could come to class, feel completely lost on whatever Cheryl's latest and greatest syllabus change was, and just ask for help and you all would be there for me. Even Wilson will say he told me so when I find that I cannot do things I thought I could without him sitting right next to me holding my hand.

I have my little (LITTLE) apartment, and I have not been mugged yet. I have sat next to transient individuals on the subway who tend to laugh maniacally at the absence of just about anything. I have made a fool of myself plenty of times, met some interesting characters, eaten strange fare, and gotten hopelessly lost. But, all in all, I am learning already and classes haven't even started (until tonight that is). Wish me luck, I will need it. I really miss the nurturing, accessible nature of Utah and Utah State in particular. But you what, so far, I have found that my experience at USU has really prepared me for graduate school. I had my moments of skepticism, but I am really suprised to learn that I actually know what's going on around here thanks to my years of struggle at USU. God bless the Aggies.

I will post pictures soon, and I cannot find pictures of your baby ANYWHERE Jerilynn, ( I am sure I am not looking in the right places) but either tell me how to view or resend por favor. I must see. I know what you mean about being depressed about not going back to school (even though I am looking down the barrel of a loaded gun of reading and homework--about 600 pages per week of book assignment reading with loads of articles on top of that) but I was in Logan not too long ago feeling that excitement in the air of everyone coming back from the summer and starting school and just...I felt really nostalgic and sentimental about everything. A big part of me wished I had one more year left. I thought of a lot of things I wanted to do still. I love Logan, and of course you never realize how much you love something until you lose it (that is my last rote comment for the day, I promise). Also, I turned 22 today! I think that's a nice number but I was crying last night because I will never be 21 again. I hope everyone is marvelously happy. I can't wait to see Bundy in December (though we have been playing a wild game of phone tag).

much love from the stinky streets of New York,

vanessa